Time For Love Box Set by Karen Deen

Author:Karen Deen [Deen, Karen & Deen, Karen]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Karen Deen
Published: 2020-11-26T18:30:00+00:00

Chapter Eighteen

Zoe

“I’m so sorry.” It was all I could say over and over again in my own head. Finally, I managed to whisper the words out loud. “I’m so sorry, Luke.” At this stage there were so many things I was sorry for.

Sorry I didn’t tell him.

Sorry he witnessed another panic attack.

Sorry I ruined our night and possibly us, just when we finally thought we had an us.

Sorry for being me. Just like they always said, never worth anything to anyone.

“Zoe, talk to me. Tell me what’s going on. I need to know.”

I couldn’t look up at Luke. If I saw the hurt in his eyes, that would make it real. I put the hurt there. Hurt that I didn’t know if I’d ever be able to take it away.

“Please understand I never wanted to hurt you. I don’t even know where to begin.” Tears continued to fall. I knew I wasn’t going to be able to tell this story without crying. Maybe that was what I needed to do. Get the words out, release the tears, and then walk away, leaving Luke to find someone worthy of his love

“Take your time, we have all night. I will admit I’m confused and a little upset but I’m not going anywhere. You’ll have to try harder than this to get rid of me.” His finger softly slid under my chin. I fought against the pressure of him lifting my face. “Look at me, Zoe. You need to lay all your cards on the table. To do that, you need to be looking at me. Not hiding from me or from yourself.”

Reluctantly, I gave in and allowed him to raise my face but kept my eyes downcast.

“Really look at me. My eyes, Zoe. Look me in the eyes. We need to see each other. You need to know that it’s okay.”

This man had no idea how hard it was to fulfil that request. No one had ever really seen the real me. No one had cared enough to try. The only one who had ever come close was Luke.

“Plus, you have the most beautiful eyes and I want to be reminded of that. You may have hidden them from me once, but never again.”

Finally, our eyes met and just like normal, I found peace and affection. Like Luke always said, it was like being home. He deserved to know what happened. Even if he hated me for it.

“I’m so sorry I didn’t tell you. I was in a really bad place the first time I met you. By the time we met again in the office, I’d tried so hard to leave that life behind. I’d run from all there was that dragged me down. I thought I had moved far enough away from where I’d lived. Far enough away from the men who might recognize me. When I saw you for the first time, I thought I had blown it. The job, and my new life, all in the first five minutes.

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